It's the time of year when I assess what we've been doing, what works, what doesn't, and what I should change in order to accomplish what we need to.
Most people do this in January, I think.... For me, Spring makes more sense. First on the list is myself. Seems selfish, maybe, but I know that if I don't fix ME I can't fix anything else. I have to drop the laziness into the garbage can. Seriously. I was doing an okay job of this during Lent; but after Easter got here, the old lazy bug crept back in. I HAVE TO make time for "me" in the mornings, before everyone else gets up. I really hate realizing at 4 in the afternoon that I have something scheduled at 6PM and haven't showered that day.
So, okay, let me bring you up to speed. I took on some more children to baby sit. I'm continuing to homeschool my three children. Things have been going well, but now the "honeymoon" stage is over and I really MUST get my mind, body, and generally everything back into a good routine. (we have one, it just isn't really working too well....for me.) The children are happy, well taken care of, having fun, getting school work accomplished, et cetera. MOMMY, on the other hand, is hanging by a thread. haha. My life revolves around them, as it should, but really. I NEED some "ME" time! (Didn't I already say that??) We're talking desperate, here. The sewing machine hasn't been used since January (shame, shame). My crafting has been on the back burner. Time for being creative has been lost in the busyness of our day-to-day. This makes me incredibly sad and I find myself facing burn out.
The solution I have thought of (If all goes as planned) requires me to get my lazy butt out of bed no later than 6AM and to have some quiet time after I am ready for the day. Mid-day I can nap with the kids if I'm feeling especially worn out, or work in some time for crafting or playing the piano. (Things I love.) At the end of the day, I need to have cleaned the kitchen and generally picked up things off the floors and put away the laundry. Going to bed at a decent hour won't hurt. (*wink*) An attitude adjustment would be helpful, too. Don't ya think?!
Look, the lady in Proverbs 31 had it going on! But don't you think some of her time was spent for her enjoyment as well as for her family? When I get up earlier in the morning, I'll have some time for "me", but in reality I'm preparing myself to teach my children and to not feel so UN-prepared. When I'm crafting or writing or drawing, I'm usually doing things for my children...though it helps me to chill out a little and have a sense of doing something I want to do, for "me". Of course there is time that I'm helping my husband with the soccer business...spending time quietly working alongside one another. Those are sweet moments. I'm trying not to sound selfish....
Now that I've rambled on about ME, next on the list is obviously going to be my family. I really have GOT to be more diligent about expecting my children to do their chores, daily. This will cut down on a lot of the chaos. I've been in a mind-set of "not wanting to fight that battle"....if that battle isn't fought, my children are going to learn to be lazy and expect others to just take care of things FOR them. Or get the "It'll get done eventually" disease. (procrastination) Children learn what they live, I'm telling you what!! (Back to changing ME first, haha)
JOURNALING:: When I kept a journal, I had a better sense of what I had done, what worked, what didn't, and what I needed to do to change what wasn't working. So in the spirit of going back to the basics, I'm going to be better about journaling our day-to-day and teaching my children to do the same.
PURGING:: We need to get rid of things we don't use or no longer need. We need to know what we have and pass things on to others who can find our "clutter" useful.
Well, that's all I can think of for now. My brain is running wild, coming up with more and more things that need to be tweaked here and there. For now, this is enough. This will give us a good, fresh start.
The bottom line is that I have been the problem. I am responsible for my children not doing their chores or not completing tasks. They have learned from what they see me doing. They have learned to be unprepared complainers instead of driven doers. If I want to have time to craft, play music, lay out in the sun and do nothing, then I have to stop procrastination and laziness in its' tracks.
Thanks for reading my rambly silliness. I really just needed a chance to type it all out so I could pin-point the issues. haha Have a great weekend!! Mine will consisit of journaling and purging and making sure I'm PREPARED for Monday's happenings!!
*note:: I'm purposely NOT going to proof-read this, so I can re-read it Monday and laugh at how ridiculous I sound.*
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